Journal entry, 11th of June 2020.

In the last few days, I was stuck to the bed. Not sick but a very strong pain from my right shoulder and neck that goes to my upper arm. It hurt a lot when sitting or walking around so the last few days I just lay on my back in my bed. It is very hard for me because I had never an injury like this. Not sure where it came from but the fact is that I didn’t do a lot of sports for the last 2 weeks. I think not moving a lot and doing a lot of desk work caused the injury. Sitting too much in one place I think. These days with bed rest I got a lot of time to think about life. About my life. Which brings me to the next topic.


Black Lives Matters.

I was doubting a lot if I would write something about this but it is too important to ignore. First of all, I want to say I cannot imagine how it would feel to be discriminated against. Constantly. People looking at me with different eyes. I cannot even feel that because it never happened to me. Never I didn’t get a job because I was white. Never was I not able to not enter a night club because I was white. Never was I arrested because I was white. So it is difficult to place me in a spot where that would happen. I cannot wrap my brain around it because I never lived it. And so is everyone who is privileged. It makes it difficult to understand. To understand the pain.

We need to listen and we need to do it now. Now is the time. It is gonna hurt. Are you ready? Because I am. A good friend of mine wrote a beautiful post about this issue and I completely agree with him. He can word it much better than me and I all invite you to read his post. My short diary is only an intro to it but I wanted to write something. Even something small helps and I encourage you to do the same. Spread the word. So we can live in a better world. Together.


black lives matters